Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Taking An -L

Ok yesterday didn't go as all. Not one bit. Today didn't go so smoothly either. TOM is kicking my add and taking over my life. After this weekend, well including today I won't be weighing myself for two weeks. Well I may no never mind I won't. Don't want to set myself up for even more failure because my eating had been atrocious. Bagels, bacon, eggs,  and another bagel :/ for breakfast then I had fries, chicken avocado wrap for lunch smdh I ain't no good right now lol. I don't know what I'm having for dinner but I'm ready to chuck the whole week up as a loss. If its one thing for sure, its that weight loss isn't got the weak of heart or should I say willpower? I have none when TOM comes to visit. That's ok. The scale moved that's month and my arms are looking better. Matter of fact my whole body is looking better. Caught a glimpse of my ass (yep I said my ass, don't judge me its mine! :-p) in the mirror last night and had to do a double take. My while backside is looking goot (no typo either)! Not mad at that one bit either. Shows all my hard work and now that I'm in the second round things are getting harder. My 5 day "vacation" starts tomorrow so I'm hoping to workout at least 3x between now and then. Working out usually gives me an incentive to eat better because no one wants to feel like shot while working out at least I don't. Lawd give me strength!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Long Weekend.

This real had been a tough week for me as far as everything. Mentally, food wise, I just haven't been able to get my head back into the game. I was doing really well got down to 190.8 but between TOM and caving in to my mothers cooking (which is usually extra salty, extra fat, extra everything I don't normally eat anymore) I'm bloated. So I'm back up 192.2 this morning, which I know will go away in a few days but still. This is the part where being a woman sucks. Hopefully I will be able to workout today. I feel so heavy...i need to get on track. 2.3 from this months goal so close and yet so far. I'll be fasting until 1 today or lunch time. Maybe longer until I feel lighter. Bbq weekend is coming up so this will be a long weekend too. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I Want To Look Good!

I want to look good...

For future job interviews

For future clients for my business

To look good in clothes

For my health

To feel good

To run 3 miles

To be comfortable in my own skin

I want to look good for me!

My thoughts from this morning as I stared at myself (which I'm starting to like to often) this morning while I was getting ready for work.  I like feeling good, I like looking good, and I owe all of this to myself. For having patience, being consistent, and going after my goals. Tonight I plan on trying zumba for the first time and taking a body sculpting class (which kicked my butt Saturday and well worth it). I'm excited to get it in! I have a goal to meet for June.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

FAQ: What Diet Am I On?

I must admit. Last week I was feeling rather shitty about my weight loss progress thus far. Being that I had set high goals for myself, though slightly unrealistic or maybe not but for me it was because I slacked off on things I was doing in the beginning of my weight loss journey. I wanted to lose a continous 10 pounds a month, which would put me down to around 180 by now or in that range. But of course, I became less strict about my diet (and when I say diet Im not speaking about "The Cabbage Diet", "Atkin Diet", " (Insert Any Quick Fix Diet here) but diet in the true sense of the word...the foods I eat, and exercise. After having a talk with myself - yeah I do that sometimes, you know you do too- I came that to the conclusion that I should be and I am proud of my progress, as my friend reminded me of last week. She was really impressed that I lost close to 50 pounds in 6 months (BTW Im 50 down now) and I really think I sparked something in her because she started a "diet" that same week and Im really encouraging her to keep going because she's tried and failed numerous times, but haven't we all? I hope that my progress will continue to encourage and inspire her to keep going. But I digress back to this "diet" and my reasons for feeling shitty...I was having feeling really down on myself about my progress and along with receiving lots of compliments last week that reminded me I should be proud of myself. I received a lot of questioning about if Im dieting and what diet Im on o_O Yeahhhhh people automatically assume Im on a diet because Im losing weight. I have to explain to them that I changed my diet but Im not on a diet and it was fairly easy to lose weight if you go from having McDonald's for every meal to not having McD's every meal and including more fruits and veggies in my diet. Along with working out to boot because I don't want to be skinny fat, matter of fact I don't want to be skinny, I just want to be fit! =) **Sidenote** My coworker lost over 100 pounds but she's more skinny fat than fit but you can't tell her that...Her weight loss is inspiring but mmh I don't want to be her. **End Sidenote** Now I still eat fast food but I make healthier choices like having a salad over a burger and diet soda  (yeah I know) or water over plain soda and juices, and I know its not perfect, which is why I consider myself a 80/20 eater but it works for me. I wish people didn't assume I was on a special diet to lose weight and realize they can do it too instead of scarfing down Big Mac's everyday,  then complaining about why they can't lose weight. Change your diet don't go on a diet.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Hi My Name Is _____And Im a Shopping Addict.

Have you ever had to say that to yourself? Now that you've lost all this weight, you naturally have to buy new clothes that fit you properly but when does it become overboard? I've lost weight everywhere so I even have more shoe options along with clothing options and Im feeling like Im turning into a shopping addict. Today I bought two new pair of shoes and a top, which I know I deserve because I've been working hard BUT I still have clothes in my closet that I can fit into again from the first time I lost weight. So I don't want to overload my closet when I have still fashionable clothes I can fit. Im just wondering where should I draw the line? I've heard of stories on Oprah where people lost alot of weight and battled food addictions to transfer it into a shopping addiction. I don't want to be one of those people because the Lord knows I can't afford it but losing weight has boosted my confidence and looking good in nice clothes help that. Mmmh I can't wait until I get to my goal size. BTW I LOVE being a woman! Nobody can tell me that its anything better. Wearing heels, dresses, and jewelry Oh My! I just love it. Ok Im done. Maybe I'll post pictures of my purchases later. Im still eyeing another pair but Im waiting until they go on sale or at least until I can find a way to get a discount on this marked down shoes. DSW is having a MAJOR sale, if you're reading this hop on that!

EDIT: Oh yeah I hit my half way mark and I am now down 50 lbs with spin class in the morning. Yay me!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Goals: June Edition

So I know its just about half way into June but I still have goals to share :-p I figured if I put it out the in the universe, maybe things will come to fruition.

The more weight I lose the harder it is for me to stick to my goals. Though I'm not at my final goal, I'm becoming more comfortable with how I look, fitting into most of my old clothes, liking what I see in the mirror...LIFE IS GOOD! But I know I'm not completely there so I keep going. Here are my goals for June:

• Get into the 180's

• Workout at least 3x per week

• Try 3 new classes at the wellness center

• Complete C25k Program* (

• Eat at least 1 serving of fruit/vegetables a day (we all have to start somewhere, right?) And I know I don't eat enough at the moment.

Ok so wish me luck and I am off to get focused!

*May not complete but will continue

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Lucky Day!

Today must be my lucky day (well I'm sick so not that lucky) but the expensive fitness center that I'm doing a trial for in June, ran a Groupon coupon this weekend and it had expired but I lucked up and was able to get the deal today! The deal was 3 months for what you would pay for 1 month, so I've just extended 30 days into 120 on the cheap! I haven't been working out since Saturday because I've been under the weather since Friday. Ironically after trying this new fitness center for the first time. I'm not sure if the gym made me sick or if I picked it up from someone in passing. I do know that right after I got back to work, after the fitness center (I went on my lunch break) my sore became extremely sore, and it was all down hill from there. I'm going that I'm 80% tomorrow and I cann resume my running during the evening. I also want to try the strength training class on Thursday and spin class this weekend. Anyhoo it's June and it time too set new goals!